A minute before bedtime.

I love being broken.

Say what?

Yep

Are you joking right now. I'm like, properly hurt here.. Because of you..! Hello!

I know.

And you're enjoying it??

No. Not at all. It sucks. Worse than anything I know.

And yet you say you love being broken because....

You know why.

Remind me!

Well because then He becomes real. More real than in any other condition.

Oh..yes. He is so wonderful..!

You know this.

I do..but

He doesn't want this for us. He has better plans. He has a GOOD plan. Wait for Him. Please don't do this to me again ok?

I'm sorry Anu..

Please don't keep giving yourself away this way. Twice now. It terribly hurts.

I didn't know this was coming Anu.. I'm very sorry.

I know. But you could have just stopped when he confessed.

I know. But what can I do.. I thought he'd feel the same way.

He doesn't. At least not in the same level.

I know now..

Please don't do this again to me.. it wrecks my life. Makes me ill.

I know. I know. That's why we have decided not to anymore. Twice enough.

Yes.Thank you.

If I fail?

You will not fail. You have HIM. He made you. Can you please cling to Him ALONE?

I AM His!

Be more of His then.

Yes.

No more, ok? You will make me lose everything if you do.

He never fails. He won't let me down.

Good.

Sleep?

Yes. Let's.

I promise you. No more.

I trust Him not to. No more. Sweet dreams!


(AM)