2020..bye!

 Uff , what can I say. I’m pretty sure I’m not the only person on earth who is glad to get rid of you, 2020. It’s ironic and sad though, since we celebrated your arrival with pomp and circumstance- new decade, new hope, 2020 vision and all that jazz. Sorry to say you are now remembered as one of the worst years in human history. Tragic. 

Most of us witnessed a Worldwide pandemic for the first time in our lives, and we sincerely pray that it would be our last. The lives lost, livelihoods that crumbled, are innumerable, and we don’t want that on God’s earth thank you very much. There are enough problems in life already, and to top it we don’t need additions of new viruses killing people rampantly and mercilessly, ailing the rest and patronizing the remaining. So yes, good riddance.

I know I know. It is not purely your fault. There were many aspects that snowballed into this and I suppose you had to face the brunt of it.

I really don’t want to write today about how terribly your content made the world suffer, 2020, for that is ALL I have been writing this year at work, and I’m honestly tired of writing the word “pandemic”. There. I had to do it again. Uff!

2020, you gave me personally a chance to REALLY sit down and analyze my life, and take a comprehensive surveillance of my goals, motives, and objectives in life thanks to the extended lockdown period where there was no excuse but. For that, I truly appreciate you. I had time to push myself beyond my escapist imagination and face the trains of thoughts, the fears, and the emotions, that kept postponing soul-health. I literally sat down with God and undid all the knots I should have, analyzed the fragments, had a solid time of weeping, repenting, regretting, wallowing in self-pity, but then thankfully I had a few extra months to get up, dust myself off the grime, and wake up as a total new person. Thank you, lockdown. Thank you, Jesus.

Yes, I know that it wasn’t God who the initiated viral epidemic, but see how beautifully he turned it around to many of us who thankfully were not directly affected health-wise. Months without certain stipends, months without little escapades with friends -you, 2020, forced me to reconcile with my soul, you made me strong. You made me even better a human being. A braver one, with a clearer mind.

Thankfully with my closest and dearest I was able to release my own first original English single with you AND a Sinhala single. ...in to the Rhythm was such an adventure. It is amazing how life unravels whilst one creates pieces of lasting art. Well, I give you a hi5 for we did it together. Before that, Miduna opened up some interesting doors for me. Those that brought me closer to some likeminded and then also closed doors for others. Oh, in that case, I’m not going to talk about the elephant in the room with you, because 2019 and I will cherish the GOOD memories. You actually, poor thing, faced the emotional and mental stress and the muck which were hidden beneath the surface there. I should thank you; and I also give you a hug. I feel you. I get it.

Thanks for helping me to put out some of the dances I had in mind to the virtual world. Thanks also for the lovely and fun times I’ve had going live online with some sweet fellow artists and friend including some famous names.
Thanks for helping me write more, read more, learn more, and unlearn more.

I’m very grateful for you; but my heart aches when I think of those who’ve lost loved ones by the damn COVID-19. And yes, DAMN it. I don’t damn ANYTHING but what is not from the Heavens and that C- loser is definitely from the pits of hell. I saw colleagues and acquaintances suffer, their friends and family bearing its weight. And I don’t want 2021 to also carry this terrible damn thing... if possible -by tonight, just end it all!

Thanks, 2020. You have made me, after decades of existence realize even further, and establish the fact that life is about the little things. Thanks to family, closest friends and loved ones, you were tolerable, and in a way actually loving. I say it again, thank GOD for loved ones... I can’t imagine how terrible it is to be alone and/or lonely with the great adversities you brought along.

Sigh...alright. Here goes then. Cheers to you. Now go hangout by yourself and distance yourself from 2019 please. (pun intended) Looking forward to meeting 2021 tomorrow and have our first hearty chat... yes obviously we will be talking about you a lot, but as we won’t be meeting again, now it’s time to say goodbye, dear one.

Goodbye. And for the last time, stay safe!

Don’t forget that I AM thankful that we met.

Love,

-A

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