"Fearfully and wonderfully made..!"
I was disappointed. I didn't know what I lacked not to be in the position I dreamed of, which was given to another. I knew God was preparing me for this , realization; first through an adamant "Not now", and through a very obvious dream just the night before I knew.. However there's always this part of humane self pity that hits you, ever so subtly yet accurately. Which of course, I knew was coming, so I wasn't completely unprepared spiritually. But yes, I was disappointed. My initial question to God , after thanking Him from saving me from heartache, was "I know You have better plans for me.. Lord, do you think I'm not good enough for this genre? Is there any lack in me that I should be aware of, or am I just talking nonsense here. "
I told Him that I knew He'd speak to me through the next song, as He always does when I drive.. I told Him that I love Him, and whatever His answer would be , I would be ok with . What I assumed the next song on my playlist was a worship song, but He had a more refined plan. 💖
The following is my translation of the song that immediately played next. My heart melted and I wept like a little girl as I felt His presence envelop me while the melody resonated in my little car.
"Why oh why , has God made you so wonderfully..!
So much that I want to just keep you doused in flattery
Why has God made you so wonderfully
So excellently well..
Whilst near me , (you) give me such warmth
When far from me , (the longing for you) burns my lungs
With what blazing fire has God forged you!
Why has He designed you so diligently
So excellently well.. -"
Humanely, in my flesh, I felt so unworthy and in tears and a full heart of affection my immediate reaction was a retaliation of "I don't deserve this love, Baaba..!", but before I went any further, He shushed me with the rest of the song:
"- (So precious are you that) I sprinkle dew over (you) all night ,
that the fervor of moonbeams would not awaken you
(I make sure I take extreme cautious care to look after you)
For He has formed your being with so much pain! (how painstakingly has God formed you!)
Why has He created you so beautiful
So intricately, that I only desire to keep you immersed in compliments
So magnificent, so desirable,
He made you so excellently well.. !"
My heart was full..
My entire being was awash of the gravity of Affection.
How I got home, only He knows :)
(c) Anu Madhubhashinie
*poetic license used to elaborate.
Photo credit: Sameera Liyan
"Enna Sona " is written by Gulzar, composed by AR Rahman, and voiced by Arijit Singh for the movie "OK Jaanu"by Mani Ratnam.
I told Him that I knew He'd speak to me through the next song, as He always does when I drive.. I told Him that I love Him, and whatever His answer would be , I would be ok with . What I assumed the next song on my playlist was a worship song, but He had a more refined plan. 💖
The following is my translation of the song that immediately played next. My heart melted and I wept like a little girl as I felt His presence envelop me while the melody resonated in my little car.
"Why oh why , has God made you so wonderfully..!
So much that I want to just keep you doused in flattery
Why has God made you so wonderfully
So excellently well..
Whilst near me , (you) give me such warmth
When far from me , (the longing for you) burns my lungs
With what blazing fire has God forged you!
Why has He designed you so diligently
So excellently well.. -"
Humanely, in my flesh, I felt so unworthy and in tears and a full heart of affection my immediate reaction was a retaliation of "I don't deserve this love, Baaba..!", but before I went any further, He shushed me with the rest of the song:
"- (So precious are you that) I sprinkle dew over (you) all night ,
that the fervor of moonbeams would not awaken you
(I make sure I take extreme cautious care to look after you)
For He has formed your being with so much pain! (how painstakingly has God formed you!)
Why has He created you so beautiful
So intricately, that I only desire to keep you immersed in compliments
So magnificent, so desirable,
He made you so excellently well.. !"
My heart was full..
My entire being was awash of the gravity of Affection.
How I got home, only He knows :)
(c) Anu Madhubhashinie
*poetic license used to elaborate.
Photo credit: Sameera Liyan
"Enna Sona " is written by Gulzar, composed by AR Rahman, and voiced by Arijit Singh for the movie "OK Jaanu"by Mani Ratnam.
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