Always been One. (c)

Some of the most intimate and beautiful moments I've had with God have been during my long solitaire drives to and from Colombo. (Mostly to and from Church) 

I decided to document a few of those experiences in order to be an encouragement to others. 

 

One day as I was driving back home from worship practices quite late at night , pretty sombre after a certain incident, I asked God the following question: "Abba Jaan, I feel like all those years before I met you is a waste. If I knew you earlier I would've been in a much better place right now. I feel like a failure. However I don't want to dwell in this feeling which is totally not from you. And

 I know that there is no accident with you.. could you take this weight off me and help me focus on what's true..! Tell me what you think."

Instantly there was a rush of peace and love , and the very next moment a beautiful Hindi love song,"Tu Har Lamha" sung by Arijit Singh, written by Sayed Qadri began to play on the car stereo.  The translation is as follows:

(I took poetic license in a few places to enhance contextual meaning)

 

 "I’ve always known what’s there in Your heart

Those intricacies you keep hidden from the entire universe

I’ve always recognized Your thoughts

Which you very successfully manage to ignore

I've always read between your lines

I've always heard you through your eyes

I've always, gradually and gently seeped through your every heartbeat

You've always, ever been connected to me, my love

Wherever you were, however far you 

thought you've been, you and I have always been one.

Those days (when you hadn't encountered me yet) when you were feeling low, were because you hadn't seen or met me as yet

Those days you spent in quiet disappointed seclusion, those were because you didn't yet know you could communicate with me.

Now that I'm your sole reason of living, don't withhold me from any aspect of life.

You may refrain from putting it into words, but I know that it is only I who you yearn for.

I feel your every need in every breath you take in me

Speak freely to me about your wishes and your dreams my love

Right now is the right time.. don't hold back from me

You've always, ever been connected to me, beloved..

Wherever you were, however far you 

thought you've been, you and I have always been one." 

 

By the time the song ended , my face and neck were drenched in tears of joyous revelation.

 

..I'm undone! 💖✝

 

(c) AM 

 

Original song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GqR4gLsjEKc

 

 Photo Credit: Gayan Prasanna Gamage